Have you ever had something happen to you that made you so upset that you just wanted to sit in a secluded area blaring the saddest music you can possibly think of and just fall back into someone’s arms but you are saddened to realize that because of your seclusion you have no one there to catch you? I have. I have the most amazing friends in the world…and I let things get in the way of them. God opened my eyes tonight by showing me that silence isn’t always golden, and that no matter how right we may think we are, we are usually so incredibly wrong. God has a funny and mysterious way of showing himself to you, especially when you have something that you are hiding with your life. To sit there and watch someone who you care about so deeply fall is the hardest thing that one can do. I do not even think that it’s possible to even apologize enough, because I put a dent in a beautiful bond of friendship. I can only hope that God mends and patches the broken piece. I know that I am not perfect, and I know that I never will be. I care about my friends more than they know, and they care about me so deeply. I can never thank them enough for always being there to fall back on. Having your closest friends rally around you and support you through your toughest of times even when they have absolutely no idea what is going on is the most wonderful feeling that God can ever allow someone to feel. God has blessed me so much, and I cannot believe that I am just now starting to realize it. Tonight, as unbelievably upset out of my mind I was, I never found myself so one with my Heavenly Father. I’ve never sang so passionately in my life. I never felt so emotional. I felt so different than normal; and I feel like the winds of change are finally arriving upon my life. It’s time to move on and forget dwelling on my past mistakes. “But one thing I do: forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus” – Philippians 3:14
Knowing that God’s love is abounding in ever present times of trouble, I have chosen to move on. I have gritted my teeth and held in anger for far too long. I’ve let people control me and push me around for far too long, and I’ve sat back and watched the torment of others go on right in front of me and done nothing about it for FAR too long. I want to be different, and I want to stand out. This is my spring break, and I will make a difference in myself and in my life. I only hope that you will do the same.
Remember, nothing is impossible for HIM, and through HIM, we can do anything.
Till Next Time,
Zach
